Mentality: Expression and Continuity

Dissociation is a Vulture

Disconnect of working from home during the peak of the pandemic in 2020 inspired this piece about the revenant dissociation hovering over the healing process.

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Indelible Stains

Exploration of C-PTSD.

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Severed Assault

A retrospective on my forbidden identities, the at once both institutional and personal nature of being ostracized, and the indelible memories of missed understandings.

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Healing Particles

I found a loving meeting place for my internal parts. It is a 'place in space' full of light. That's what I envision, this is what I created.

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The March

Exploration of C-PTSD.

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Maladaptive; Maladies

Sister and their Saxophone

My sister and best friend, inspires me to also put myself out there artistically. I am incredibly proud of them and their musical journey. I would not be sharing this site of my art, were it not for their unconditional love and bravery. Follow them @saxtooter

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Awash with mental confusion and amnesia at the onset of dissociation, I struggled to find the safety of solid ground that serves as a prerequisite for healing.

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Philodendron Prince of Orange

It started with a pun! This led to curiosity about the transplantation of species from their original habitats to our homes. Even when the conditions are correct, they may feel a bit stuck- like this prince is, with his crown of orange to greening leaves.

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Black Lives Matter

Unable to march in 2020 for health reasons, I dropped off this painting at various events to show my support in the only way I could at the time.

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Turning 30

On my thirtieth birthday I celebrated with friends, asking them to dress as any artist, and paint at my table. This work was inspired by Georgia O'Keefe.

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Innerchildren; Blockades

Unfettered rage

Collaboration with my sister (Meg Vermilion) and their spouse (Alex Calbick), we added on layers of meaning and color. My contribution demonstrates the desire to communicate the fears of our youngest selves, and how that fear may turn and instead collide with our intentions to share love.

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Anger terrifies me, including my own. Here I explore the potential for productive and safe outlets; places where I can freely let go of rage.

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Take Away

Exploration of C-PTSD .

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The Eye of my Ego

Where are our memories stored? How does dissociation occur? What part of the brain holds our ego, and where does it go when our sense of self dissipates?

Original: Ink dip-pen and brush, NFS. Prints: Archival ink $45.

Salty

This funny piece brings me joy, reminding me of my late grandfather who had a mural of the wave painted in his home.

Original: Ink dip-pen and brush, NFS. Prints: Archival ink $45.

Forget, Regret

The Range of Ecofeminism

Maladaptive coping is recursive and unproductive. It continues a circle of pain and fetters healing.

Original: Ink dip-pen and brush, NFS. Prints: Archival ink $45.

Ecofeminist philosophy delivered meaning into my life when I had no direction, no worldview, no religion or paradigms to grasp. When I encountered ecofeminism I once again could make sense of the ills of the earth.

Original: Acrylic, NFS. Prints: Archival ink $45.